My last post was a bit of a downer, I admit it. So many emotions are running rampant these days. Lots to think about, lots to be sad about, lots to be ELATED about, lots of things to look forward to, lots of things to miss. You get where I'm going with this, right? I'm an emotional CLUSTER! But, ya' know what? I think that's okay. I could get all down on myself and not share this roller coaster of emotions and keep the craziness to myself and have a "fru, fru" blog but I've spent the majority of my life keeping my feelings a secret (with the exception of those that come out in my crazy facial expressions.... but that's another story!) The bottom line is, I think emotions are meant to be shared. I no longer see that as a sign of weakness, On the contrary, I see it as a sign of true strength. It takes courage to say what's on your mind and how you're feeling and getting past the wondering of how you'll be judged for it. I always thought it was the strong person who put on brave face during times of sadness. I came to realize that's an actual sign of weakness. I don't want to be weak anymore! I speak often about my daddy and how his Cancer and death have affected me. I often think people are tired of hearing about it but then I think, this is my blog and my voice. People don't have to read it if they don't want to, right? This is the place that I can come and say what I feel. I'm pretty used to people not wanting to hear what's on my mind but I figure this is the best place to "let it all hang out!" Confession is good for the soul. It's always been easier for me to write what I'm feeling versus verbalizing it. So, this blog has been very therapeutic for me. And, one of the most important things my father taught me, just before his passing, was that what others think "just doesn't really matter." That's what he said when planning his own funeral. He made it abundantly clear that we let his pall bearers (who he called himself and asked if they would do this for him) that they should be themselves, not worry about what to wear.... wear their jeans or overalls or whatever they have because "it just doesn't matter". Thank you Daddy!!! You are right, "it just doesn't matter". Being true to yourself and realizing what is truly important in life is ALL that matters!
So, let's move on to how I got my groove back. (I told you my thoughts are a cluster!) The last few days have been hard. Hearing all the Christmas jingles and commercials on TV and going to the stores and trying to take in all the decorations. Geez! I've been overwhelmed with emotions. I couldn't seem to find my motivation! I've had this antique dresser that I am to re-finish for a client for quite some time. My time line (by Thanksgiving) was pressing down on me. So this morning, I busted out the Formby's Furniture Refinsher and got to work. I always work better under pressure. The results were amazing. I was a bit nervous taking on this project because I don't have any experience refinishing furniture but I did SO much research and came to the conclusion that Formby's was the the route I needed to take.
Before Formby's:
After Formby's:
Holy Moly! I'm so impressed with what this stuff can do!!!! I was worried about all the scratches but after Formby's they were gone! I'm so excited to continue working on this piece and know that it's going to be so beautiful!!! All it took to set me straight was a lot of seashells, hot glue and, today, a bottle of miracle chemicals! I've got my groove back and I'm raring to go! Stay tuned for this gorgeous girl's reveal!
Now, if someone could just take away the "commercial" Christmas, I'd REALLY be on top of the World! This year, I'm going to focus on a Christ filled Christmas because that's what it's truly about! God has wrapped his arms around me since losing my father. He's given me the gift of clarity that I will forever be grateful for!!!
I love this post! It is your blog and you can write whatever you want on it----if someone doesn't like it, they don't have to read it. :) I, for one, will be reading. :) You've got a wonderful heart and I've really enjoyed getting to know you better on Facebook and our blogs. What a joy you are to have in my life. :) I love the Formsbys stuff---I'm going to have to get me some! :) Can't wait to see your furniture all finished. You're doing great!
ReplyDeleteKim, you are such a wonderful person and I can't tell you how much your encouragement has helped me realize that my dreams can become reality...... that I CAN do this! You have been a great source of inspiration for me! I admire your work ethic, your courage to take a chance and follow your heart and, of course, I admire you're wonderful artistic ability and creativity. Not to mention you're a pretty funny gal! Which I love! Thanks so much for cheering me on! I am very grateful that our paths crossed.
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